June 2025

Another month is over, and a new one has just begun!

Let’s hope it’s a good one without any fear… and regret!

Now… where to begin?

June 1

It’s now or never; I need to get back to my own personal agenda, which I have forsaken for so long!

Starting from this evening, I need to start revising everything I have learned so far, and practicing a litlte bit.

I should try to get it done within this month. And for the upcoming months, I should be wholly dedicated to it.

The rest… I suppose it’s time to ask for help (seriously), and to adjust the sail a little.

Sometimes I wonder, what is the meaning of everything have been doing?

Some day I wake up feeling energetic and ready to “conquer” the world. And yet some day, I wake up feeling full of doubt.

Whatever it is, I suppose that being near people makes me feel better and makes my mind clearer (as it happened to me this morning – attending class and role playing with people). Not to mention, physical exercises also pump me up and (seemingly) allow me to see more clearly (finally I have made it back to the gym after a long time focusing on this blog). So I suppose I should definitely try to get connected and to move more!

Though… I sometime wonder, who are my friends? Who are the people I should hang out with more?

Some people (like my mentor) consistently recommends that I hang out with their “tribes”. But I still doubt it; probably because I still doubt my own outlook on the world.

What am I supposed to believe in?

What are the fundamental things that I should believe in and base all of my existence upon it – and what are the disputable things that can be put aside?

….

I should definitely meet people more. I still doubt whether I should be out with some “gurus” out there; I still believe it’s better to be with my friends rather. Especially the ones who may seem a little… rough, I guess.

Ok, I guess that should do it for today. Let’s get back to work, while enjoying my time at the coffee shop.

Also, today is Sunday, so…. yeah!

Tenki ga iikara, hajimemashou!

(12:53 PM GMT+7 – June 1, 2025)

June 3

Woke up a little late today. I’m feeling a little lazy about going to the gym, but… well, let’s just do my best!

Let’s do it! Let’s smash it!

Tenki ga chotto yokunai desu ga, hajimemashou!

(09:05 AM GMT+7 – June 3, 2025)

June 9

Sometimes, life throws curveballs to remind you of its inherent uncertainties. As what happened to me last week.

Something happened – something that had not occured for a really long time. So long that I completely forgot about it. And I had no other choice but to turn on my kamikaze mode. It was really tiring.

Luckily, things seem to be back on track now. I suppose I need to be mindful of the fact that I am living on borrowed time. That things I hold dear are established on a crackling foundation; hence, “earthquakes” can happen at any time.

I wonder, how do people like the Japanese live comfortably given the ongoing threat of disasters?

…

I suppose that’t it for today. Let’s get back to work! Time to keep things rolling.

Maybe I should get back to my part-time job for a while. From tomorrow, it’s time to be back to my personal agenda.

Tenki ga iikara, hajimemashou!

(09:08 AM GMT+7 – June 9, 2025)

June 10

It rained heavily this morning, so I waited until the rain stopped before traveling to the office.

Recently, I have been feeling like I am running out of gas. I suppose my routine may need to be shaken up soon. And for that… I need help.

Let’s do some side tasks this morning, before getting back to what I have forsaken a long time ago.

Don’t forget my original intention – Shoshin wasuru bekarazu!

(09:23 AM GMT+7 – June 10, 2025)

June 11

Let’s learn, let’s learn, let’s learn!

Let’s not worry about the past nor the future!

You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the PRESENT.

Master Oogway

(09:10 AM GMT+7 – June 11, 2025)

June 13

Hmm… to be or not be. To say or not to say…

The path forward seems so unclear. Actually, maybe not. I already know what I need to do. It seems that all I need is a little… reinforcement. A little push from the outside.

Sometimes I wonder, how different would my life have become if I lived with a buddy instead of alone (as it is now)?

(09:07 AM GMT+7 – June 13, 2025)

Something that can be seen, yet cannot be seen…

Something that cannot be captured by mere concepts or ideas…

(11:20 AM GMT+7 – June 13, 2025)

I assume that I am going to have a “retreat” this afternoon at 05:00 PM. Not sure what awaits me, but I suppose that I will find something.

Unless I take a leap into the unknown, I cannot know…

Seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

(11:45 AM GMT+7 – June 13, 2025)

I took the leap and… well, I hope that it was a wise move.

Could I make these “retreats” more frequent – like, everyday? Sounds a litlte ambitious, but maybe worth a try.

My mentor invited me to visit him at his pagoda tomorrow. Guess that it should be a good trip; after that, I’m supposed to catch up with an old friend of mine (also another mentor – albeit in work only).

I have some pending tasks to finish; let’s try to tackle them all.

There’s something wrong with my motorbike; I suppose it’s time for me to perform maintenance for it – after quite a long time.

(07:27 PM GMT+7 – June 13, 2025)

June 18

A little tired following the last few days – trying to fix the motorbike and cleaning up a few things.

I suppose it’s time to jot things down a little. Otherwise, I may just lose the way.

It feels good to find a way (or so it seems) to stabilize oneself. But I’m not sure if it will last for long. And even if it does, I cannot let it make me forget my original intention.

I suppose let’s learn as much as I can this morning. Maybe let’s finish one quick admin task before proceeding – just to clear my mind.

The “ritual” that I have been committing to every late afternoon… not sure if it is going to work, but I guess let’s just act based on my convictions. Just have faith – and keep crawling, right?

(08:55 AM GMT+7 – June 18, 2025)

June 20

Ok, enough wandering. Let’s smash it!

(10:10 AM GMT+7 – June 20, 2025)

June 23

I’m feeling a little bit down this morning; maybe I should try to restrain myself from being too “excited”. (as it happened a few days recently)

I shouldn’t try to do a lot of things at once. Let’s take it slow and do things one by one. Let’s not be too greedy…

Let’s try to get my pending tasks finished by the end of this week then. After that, it’s time to be dedicated to a completely new agenda.

(09:20 AM GMT+7 – June 23, 2025)

June 24

I ended up taking a long nap yesterday’s evening. Too tired. Not good, but at least now I’m feeling much better.

Let’s get back to work and restructure my routine a little bit. I suppose let’s try to finish the remaining tasks for this blog within this morning. Maybe if I can spare some time this afternoon, I will get back to my study (but let’s try to get things done as soon as possible). No part-time work today – unless it is affordable somehow.

Well then, let’s do it!

(09:44 AM GMT+7 – June 24, 2025)