March 2026

Let’s jot down a few things then…

March 3

Recently, there have been a lot of things going on in the news. And it makes me wonder: where are we heading for?

This irrational will… is driving people to commit heinous acts under the guise of ideologies.

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What happens when you throw a stone into the pond?

Are we the thrower, or are we the pond?

If more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world.

(09:55 AM GMT+7 – March 3, 2026)

March 5

Let’s have a look at where I have been so far…

So far, and still have not arrived yet…

At least I’m still moving. Right here, right now. That matters much more compared to just… you know, lost in either the past or the future.

This path is so lonely. Sometimes I wish I could have a companion. An understanding companion.

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Let’s get to the social plan then, trying to finish it as soon as possible. Then let’s tackle the additional support sources. By then, it should have been noon. Then I can focus on the task for tonight (and tomorrow’s night) – before visiting the gym & cleaning up my room. Then it will be time for immersion in the evening.

Let’s do it, slowly, step by step!

(09:06 AM GMT+7 – March 5, 2026)

March 9

Let’s have a look back at the checklist and see what have been crossed.

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It seems that most of the big tasks have been crossed. Strange – I have been wondering if I’m on track with what I have been doing lately. Though looking back at the list now, kind of, gives me a feeling of being grounded.

I have up to three more months to deal with the next edition. Now that I’m doing it faster, I suppose I can just forget about it – to avoid unnecessarily cluttering my mind.

I suppose it’s time to take a “leap of faith” and start something big on LinkedIn. I’m feeling a little uncomfortable about it – stepping into the “spotlight”. Though, who cares – maybe except for my own ego?

I have nothing to lose – while a lot to gain, after all!

Being a “nobody”… it gives me some kind of an advantage that professionals do not have! I don’t have to care if it succeeds or fails or what.

(08:41 AM GMT+7 – March 9, 2026)

March 10

Enough drifting for the morning, I suppose. Let’s try to ground myself then!

Not too shabby for today. Could have been better; at least 90% of the daily checklist was crossed yesterday, so…

I have to constantly remind myself of not being too greedy.

Sigh… this constant conflict between one’s finite capacity for doing and one’s infinite capacity for becoming.

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So restless. So…

Should I just hang out with someone – to calm the water?

The thing with many of those in my connections is, unfortunately, that most of them are full of assumptions. They are ensnared in the daily grinds/ ideologies that they seem to be more interested in doing things the way they think is right.

Or is the problematic person really me?

Am I overthinking?

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Breathe… breathe… breathe…

I’m here. I’m still being. That alone is enough.

No past, no future. Just now.

I think that’s enough for today’s journal then. I’m getting the hang of it – as clumsy as I am.

(10:50 AM GMT+7 – March 10, 2026)

March 11

Let’s try to break the “curse” then – for the last few days, I have been too obsessed with things are not quite urgent in the morning.

Let’s smash what I tend to delay first, all right? Promise?

(09:11 AM GMT+7 – March 11, 2026)

March 13

Friday the 13th… again. The day of bad luck – or rather, of people trolling each other :)))

As far as I can see by now, there’s nothing like bad luck yet. Not if I don’t count the fact that I almost missed a good seat at the coffee shop.

Anw, I’m feeling better today compared to yesterday. The fog in my mind hasn’t cleared yet, but I think I’m much more grounded and determined now.

Let’s try to leverage the momentum then!

(08:50 AM GMT+7 – March 13, 2026)

March 15

This thing called “slave morality”… I cannot say how dangerous and insidious it is.

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Disgusting.

You label other people as “demons”, without knowing that you yourself have become the “demon” itself.

He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster.

(10:13 PM GMT+7 – March 15, 2026)

March 16

Be honest: what do I value?

There’s this thing I probably should have done long ago. And yet I’ve been delaying it… for reasons I know quite well.

So maybe the problem is not why I’ve been delaying. The problem is… am I OK with it?

Back in the day, I used to outsource things to a few friends I trusted. And yet… 99% of them did not meet my expectations at all. By the time I finished revising their work, I realized I could have done the damn thing from scratch – and saved me from all the stress I had been through!

Yet me doing everything by myself (well, mostly everything)… it has been costing me a lot of time.

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I suppose I can still delegate a few more simple tasks, while handling the rest then.

(08:50 AM GMT+7 – March 16, 2026)